More Than This - Really

It's been a while, but I thought today is as good a day as any to jump back on my soapbox. What do I really want to do with my career? That is the question. I truly can't give a straight answer here - all I can say is it has to be more than this. I don't mean to be so negative, but it's like the Seth Meyers Saturday Night Live skit 'Really?' that I heard a clip of this morning. Really? Did I spend 6 years of my life in school to be a glorified customer service rep? Really? I'm almost 34 and I haven't found my talent? Really? My first real job was when I peaked? Really? I've been a manager, but most of the time I was called a 'manager' I managed nothing? Really? Ok - enough whining, but I just know I can do more than this. I bought into some things the president of my company told me and thought, this is it. I'm finally going to make a difference and be happy and it unforutnately didn't unfold the way I had hoped for. If anything, I've learned there's one less person in my company to trust, but I've also learned that it truly is up to me to find what it is I'm looking for. I still have faith I will find it...reallly.

Back to the drawing board....AGAIN!

It's been a while since I've posted, but sitting here on a Sunday dreading the beginning of the work week tomorrow made me think there's no better time to update.

Again, I find myself ready to make a change and what do you know, my most recent fortune cookie recommended I seek several options before settling. Now if that isn't the universe sending me a wakeup call! My current workplace was supposed to be the final stop for a while - close to home, comfortable hours, 1 or 2 good people to work with, however, after 1.5 years, 4 bosses and two titles that don't really describe all that I do, I'm back to that sinking feeling where my motivation is slipping and the reminder that there has got to be more for me out there. The same question always comes up - will I ever be satisfied enough at work? No one loves to work, but shouldn't I just kind of like it a little bit?

I went from being extremely bored at work to getting what I asked for - more work than I can handle in a 40 hour week. I like that the days fly by, but, by taking on more responsibility, I figured I would prove my worth and it would pay off in the new year. Not so much. So, back to the drawing board again with a job search. I'm still determined to figure out where I can best use my talents. The new blog name should be hard worker still looking to show off my work!